Our mind is something very unique we have been blessed with which has the ability to make decisions, but also think either positive or negative; good or bad; encouraging or insulting. HOW we think, positive or negative, can influence our wellness significantly.
About two years ago I was diagnosed with depression after a was put on epilepsy medication. Supposedly I had been diagnosed with epilepsy just two months prior after a seizure caused me to crash my car into a barrier and waking up in ambulance being told I have had a seizure. Until then I was always a happy and positive person, in my thoughts and actions. I knew I could achieve anything I set my mind to. But the medication I was put on had severe side effects which released an over flux of cortisol, a hormone you don’t want to have too much of I realized.
My thought pattern changed and I caught myself ‘thinking’ more bad thoughts, negativity slowly started to take over my life. Not until I realized I had no control over my appetite, mood and thoughts which increasingly became suicidal, I decided that I needed help as life was not really ‘fun’ this way anymore and I believe if you are not happy with where you are, then you need to change something. And so I was put on anti depressants. Knowing that my body was just experiencing an overflow of cortisol and until my hormone levels could regulate themselves again, I would have to take some medication.
5 months later and a lot of ‘forcing’ myself to do things I love and I knew that usually make me feel good (although I never felt like it), I stopped with the medication. I was feeling and thinking more positive than negative during the day and that is when I knew I was better.
It was a tough year as I had to give up driving, but yet again God had a plan and to this day I have not had any further seizures! However I am still convinced I have had a seizure due to too much worry and stress – cortisol hormones were having a open pool party, but now I am making sure my serotonin (feel good) hormones are having party after party 🙂